C'est Mignon!

A new baby's arrived! A cute western highland terrier named Vigo. I feel like I'm having a real baby cause he followed me all the time. Whenever, wherever. He's a perfect friend for my lonely chihuahua :D
Thanks Nadya, I'll take a good care of him. Promise :)

you, me, ours.

As days go by and fade to nights
I still question why you left
I wonder how it didn't work out
but now you're gone
and memories all I have for now
but no it's not over
we'll get older we'll get over
we'll live to see the day that I hope for
come back to me I still believe that

we'll get it right again
we'll come back to life again
we won't say another goodbye again
you'll live forever with me

someday, someday we'll be together..

I heard someday might be today
mysteries of destinies they
are somehow and are someway
for all we know they come tomorrow
for today my eyes are open
my arms are raised for your embrace
my hands are here to mend what is broken
to feel again the warmth of your face
I believe there is more to life

oh I love you much more than life..

flashy flash

Its pretty exciting to blogging via blackberry, because sometimes I forgot what would I write when I'm sitting behind my laptop. But, I can't (don't know how, actually) browse any pic :( so maybe I'm gonna share some stories of mine..

Let's see back then..gatau knp tadi pas di jalan tiba2 inget sesuatu yg lucu. Jaman duluu bgt, jauh sebelum gw dan dennis pacaran, pas malem minggu dia ngajakin jalan pulang kuliah. Karna dulu dia tinggal di apartment (lumayan deket kampus), jadi dia sukanya naik bus ke kampus. Biasanya jg kl mau malem mingguan sm gw dia ngambil mobil dl ke apt nya, baru jemput gw lagi di kampus. Tapi..suatu hari gw bilang "gw ikut aja den ke apt nya, nanti baru sama2 kt perginya" trus dia bilang "okee..kl gt kt naik taxi aja yaa!".

Pas nunggu taxi, tiba2 mukanya iseng. Gw uda tau bgt soalnya dia sering sesering seringnya ngisengin gw! Dia tiba2 bilang "ah sar gw tiba2 males naik taxi. Naik bus aja yuk! Mau kan?" Gw tau dia cm iseng godain. Sebenernya gw gpp bgt kl hrs naik bus, gw lumayan sering jg gt pas sma naik bus. Tp gw mau isengin balik, jd gw jawab "aah males ah den naik bus, gw ga pernah. Trus ntar keringetan mals bangs!"
Sumpah mau ngakak liat mukanya. Muka eneg abis dan kayanya ilfeel parah! Tp ga lama kemudian gw stopin bus dan dia bilang "eeh ngapain?" Gw jawab "yaelah boong ah gue..yuk naik!" Dengan muka lega dia jitak pala gw sambil bilang "bandeell..dikerjain kok malah kerjain balik?! Uda pinter skarang? Uda aah naik taxi maunyaa!"

Sampe apt nya uda pasti langsung menuju kolam berenang. Menemukan tempat rahasia. Diam. Thinking of the unsure thing between us. Baru naik ke atas.

Sayang dia uda pindah..

I really miss those moment. I feel the sweet sour and bitter of love when I'm with you.. I've learnt things, new things. Hope it'll lasts forever.

HAPPY BIRTHDAAYY!!

yesterday (12 nov 09) is my boyfriendoo birthdaayy!!
this year, I just gave him a little buff-day surprise. and right now, I still have no idea what present suits him best. hahah. we'll see..

hmm..taun lalu salah satu kado yg gw kasih adalah sebuah video. video testimoni temen temennya dia yang ngucapin happy birthday, mulai dari anak2 kampus sampe ke anak2 bintaro (thanks to alessandro sugondo ;p). agak basi sih emang bikin video testimoni gini. makanya, biar ga basi basi amat, gw pake ada special guess star nya, yaitu dhini aminarti. Dennis ngefans nya setengah mati sama dhini aminarti. jadi apapun caranya gw cari deh tu artis. hasilnya..pas lagi nonton di laptop, laptopnya hampir kelempar gara2 dia kaget mampus. hehehe. hope it'll stays forever in his heart :)

his 19th birthday on 2007 always ringing a bell on me. waktu itu baru kenal banget. gw bahkan masih manggil dia 'kak denis' hahaha! dan dia juga baru beberapa hari nanya nomer hp gw. tiba2 dia ngajakin gw dinner hari sabtu malem di pim. itu pertama kalinya gw pergi berdua sama dia. sampe pim, kita makan di cilantro express (sayang sekarang uda ga ada :'( hiks) ternyata rame banget temen2 nya dia. akhirnya dia ngaku kalo itu acara makan makan ultahnya dia, dan gw ga even tau kalo dia ulang taun. gw juga ga siap banget di cengin abis sama temen temennya zzzzz mau mampus.

those moments will never left off my head. its deeply remarks on me :)
may God bless you to blow 101 candles and all your wishes come true, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Dennis Yonasa!!

in love = beautiful ?

when girls do in love, they looks more beautiful.

saya kurang setuju dengan quote diatas. menurut saya justru a broken hearted girls will looks hotter. just my thoughts. and my experience, properly :p

a years ago, i've been broken hearted by an asshole exbf. i cannot eat, i lost weight. then, all i want to do is just to prove him that he did a WRONG MISTAKES for dumping me. benar saja, saat saya sudah bisa melupakan dia, totally gets over him, kita ketemu secara tidak sengaja di mall paling gaul sejakarta. he looked at me with no blinking eyes and said : "hmm sar kamu kurusan bangeet..trus rambutnya uda panjang. u're way too beautiful!". abis itu dia mulai mengejar saya lagi. unfortunately, i already have another "betterman" in my life which is my today's boyfriend (hehe). so i got him (asshole exbf) dumped like the way he did.

i love when people saying "u're beautiful..". but i like more when people says "u're funny, u know? i can't stop laughing when i'm with u.." it makes me feels like i'm worth.

u know how dennis and i gets interested each other? by our laughs. sounds silly i know, but thats real.
one day, dennis acted gloomy after catch up his class. i asked whats happened and he just shut his mouth while shooking his head. i have no idea whats happening, so i just pretend like nothing happened, and started the "unstopabletalking". saya berbicara terus menerus gatau apa yang saya bicarakan. lama lama dia mulai menanggapi cerita saya dan membenarkan apa yang salah. dia mulai mengatai saya bodoh, bego, dll. he laugh everytime i did wrong or stupid. akhirnya dia bisa kembali seperti biasa dan melupakan masalahnya sejenak.

couple weeks latter, he told me why he was so gloomy. its because the girl that he like was being into a relationship with other boy. and he said that between him and her is nothing but an anger.

and i got one point : saya menghibur orang yang saya cintai karna patah hati dengan orang lain.

pain. thats what i felt.

but that's actually the thing that makes him realized, i was there for him. sincerely. with smile upon my face and my stupid behaves that can be laughted at. :)

housework.

last morning, i went to dennis’ house to get some relaxation times in the middle of my ‘busyweek’. the facts was …. dennis asked me to helped him to do some housework, because his aunt, tante kesi, who usually did the housework gets ‘demam berdarah’. it’s pretty fun, actually. dennis washed his clothes while i were frying the chickens. i couldn’t stand with boiled oil which is spray on repeatedly. stupid things happened. we ate greedily because we’ve been soooo starving. i looove doing the housework things with dennis. it’s like sparing with no pains. i loved it. i love him.

to dennis yonasa : stop biting my cheeks or other part of my body, or i swear i'm gonna... i'm gonna... just wait what i'm going to do! latter, alligator..

around 3.30pm after saying goodbye, i went to fx to watched curious case of benjamin button with my bestfriend, lala (dennis pengen ikut, but still have a lot of things to do. hihi). it’s a pretty cool movie. hard to understand for the first, tapi lama lama ngerti juga kok. brad pitt is totally HOT! he’s deadly gorgeous! me and lala restrain our breath during the film. our knee’s limp. hahaha i’ve been a little bit over reacted, by the way.

*dennis’ve been jealous wif me, so he asking his brother, ryan to watch benjamin button at pim. haha!

ps : by the way, we (me and my boyfriend) made a tumblr for sharing photos, stories, or other things about us. just check http://srdn.tumblr.com/ and we'll wait ur comments. see-ya!

the brokeups.

sumpah saya bosan sekali di rumah.

tadi rencananya mau ke rumah dennis, belajar. tapi rasanya ga mungkin karna di rumah dennis kalo ga nonton dvd, main, ya makan. hehe! karna ga ada kerjaan dan nungguin kisi kisi buat ujian besok, gw buka facebook aja. main petsos, isi2 wall, komenin voto, dll. eehh tiba tiba gw menemukan sebuah album voto dari salah seorang mantan saya yang sedikit tidak biasa. dan pas gw bukaaa ...... oooohhh shoooottt HE JUST GOT MARRIED!!
emang sih gw uda denger isu2 kalo his gf was pregnant. tapi ga nyangka aja secepat itu nikahnya hehehe.

ngomong2 soal mantan, gw baru sadar kalo dari dulu sampe skarang, gw ga pernah mutusin duluan. yes, i've never said "it's over" to my boyfriends. gw ceritain dikit yaa..

yang pertama adalah kelas 6 sd. dia cowo paling populer di sd gw. waktu kita masih sd, dia mainnya sama anak2 smp. tiba2 dia bilang suka sama gw and he asked me to be his gf. gw sih iya iya aja karna ga terlalu ngerti kan ya? tapi yaa gitu, karna dua duanya masih kecil jadi cuma angin lalu doang. kita tetep kaya temen biasa :).

abis itu. pas smp kelas 2, ada seorang cowo yang gw gatau kenapa hobiiii banget nembak gue. dia bilang " i can't live without you " lah, "i love you till the end " lah, tapi karna gw ga suka ya gw tolak terus. dari baik baik gw tolak, sampe akhirnya gw bilang "duh udah deh ya gw ga mau sama lo, ngerti gak sih?!" hehe kasar. sampe akhirnya, di hari ulang tahun gw tanggal 17 agustus dia bilang gini "sar please, jadiin gw cowo lo sehariii aja di hari ulang taun lo. kalo lo gasuka yaudah, tp kalo bisa lanjut gw bakal seneng banget!". karna kasian yaudalah gw kasih kesempatan, sehari doang kan? and guess what, he was being sooo cute. and sweet, actually. malemnya, dia bilang "thanks ya sar. gw ga maksa ko kita lanjut. gw uda tau pasti jawabannya. bisa sehari sama lo aja gw uda seneng :)" sambil nyengir. honestly, i like him. tapi ga nyaman aja sama dia. jadi gw cuma jawab "sama sama. makasi yaa kadonya". and that's it. akhirnya kita jadi temen dan dia ga nanya2 lagi.

kelas 3 smp, gw baru bener bener suka sama cowo. he's one of my close friends. tapiii dia uda punya cewe di bali. ga tau kenapa gw bisa nyaman banget sama dia, mungkin karna dia temen gw juga kali ya. he's funny, good looking, cute (i always can't resist with good looking and cute boys - not a handsome boys). lama lama kita jadi makin deket, dan gatau kenapa tiba tiba dia putus sama cewenya yang di bali. katanya dia ga tahan sama ldr (long distance relationship). pas kita lulus smp, gw dan beberapa temen deket gw ber 10 liburan ke anyer. dan dia salah satunya. seru banget! pas sore sore kita jalan jalan di pantai nungguin sunset, tiba tiba dia ngajak gw misah dan.... yep, he said the words! hehehe siapa yang bisa nolak dengan suasana kaya gitu?
tapi setelah jalan sama dia, lama lama dia berubah (or me?). kita jadi rada rada ga nyambung, dan dia jadi terlalu nurut sama gw. gw bilang apa oke, oke, oke. he's never decided something. sampe akhirnya gw males sendiri dan ga pernah hubungin dia lagi. kebetulan pas sma beda sekolah juga, dia di gonz, gue tarki. kira kira 2 minggu setelah diem dieman gw ga tahan dan sms dia. dengan muter muter kata2 diubah lagi dan lagi, dapetlah kalimat putus yang sempurna, menurut gue. eeehhh .... baru mau dikirim ada sms masuk di hp gw. pas gue liat, ternyata dia yang sms dengan kata kata yang kurang lebih sama yang mau gw kirim. yasudah, berakhirlah itu semua.

nah yang ini paling seru.

kelas 2 sma gw pindah sekolah. and i love being a new student. just like i'm the self-centered haha! beberapa bulan masuk, gw jadian. after a year, i loved him so much. gw nyaman banget sama dia. ga kaya pasangan yang putus nyambung mulu, gw sama dia gapernah sekalipun putus. bahkan berantem gede pun engga. tiba2, gatau kenapa uda beberapa hari berantem terus. kayanya emang dua duanya lagi cape dan sensitif. akhirnya dia bilang gini "sar, kayanya aku uda gabisa bikin km ketawa lagi deh. aku cuma bisa bikin km nangis doang. kita vakum dulu ya.." dan gw ga bisa kaya gitu. buat gw, pacaran ya pacaran, putus ya putus. ga ada istilah vakum atau gantung dll. akhirnya gw bilang "aku gabisa gantung2." dan dia bilang "yaudah kita putus aja, pikirin baik2." eeehh begitu gosip putusnya gw nyebar di sekolah, anak2 langsung pada ribut dan mempertanyakan ke gw. dan yang bikin gw kesel, kenapa disaat gw uda putus baru fakta2 kebrengsekan mantan gw itu kebuka. jadi selama gw pacaran sama dia, dia sering jalan sama mantannya. dan pas menjelang putus, dia melakukan pendekatan sama sahabat gue yang beberapa hari kemudian JADIAN! shiiittt fuck shit fuck! brengsek semuanya!

tiba tiba, disaat semuanya lagi suram dan gw bener bener kesepian, datanglah si mantan gw yang td gw bilang baru married itu. pas gw masik kelas 3 sma, dia udah kuliah di uph dan dia adalah kapten tim basketnya uph. wow! he came in the right time. orangnya baik banget! he treated me like a princess. pulang sekolah dijemput, latian paskibra ditungguin (padahal sekolah gw kan jauh dr uph). tapi lama lama gw gaenak. setiap makan atau jalan gw ga pernah boleh bayar. pas ulang taun gw, dia ngasih lukisan muka gw dan boneka marvin the martian favorit gw yang susaah banget dicari. trus waktu itu gw ga bales sms dia karna pulsa gw abis tiba tiba ada pulsa masuk 200ribu! gila ga tuh? gw abis itu marah2 sama dia. bukannya gimana, tp gue cuma gamau terlihat matrealistis ato utang budi danlainlain. dan lebih tololnya lagi, tanpa sadar sebernya dia hanyalah "rebound guy" dan gw masih sayang sama mantan brengsek gw itu padahal dia baik banget sama gw. akhirnya dia bilang gini "bi, kapan kamu berfikir mau putus dari aku?" gw bilang "hmm..sekarang" dan dia cuma bilang "hhh aku tau kok. walaupun kamu sayangnya sama orang lain, tapi aku sayang sm km. and you do always be my barbie" SHIIIITT anjiingg ko gantian jadi gw yang brengsek sih?! saya kesal dengan diri saya sendirii!!

abis putus sama mantan baik gw itu, gw curhat curhatan sama sahabat gw (sahabatnya mantan brengsek gw juga). eh ga kerasa gw ternyata telvon2an tiap hari, jalan sama dia mulu, pokonya bareng dia terus deh. daaann... jeng jeng.. seperti di sinetron2, dia bilang sayang! karna gw uda keburu sayang dan nyaman bgt, akhirnya gw terima. ternyataa sayang gw hanya sebatas temen ke dia, ga lebih. dan lagi lagi dianya ngerasa dan bilang "hahaa gue emang gabisa gantiin 'dia' ya? hehe goblok deh gue" dan asiknya lagi kita bisa balik jadi bestfriend lagii.

hhh.. rasanya complicated bgt ya kisah percintaan gue? tapi itu semua udah berlalu. sekarang gw uda punya orang yang gw sayang dan sayang sama gw. dan gw ga mau - sama sekali ga mau ini berakhir kaya dulu dulu:. walaupun kemaren2 sempet mengalami badai yang cukup rumit sama dia, akhirnya selesai juga badainya. dan kata kata yang paling gw suka kalo gw lagi ngambek adalah : "sarah, aku sayang sama kamu. aku ga peduli sama orang lain. aku peduli cuma sama kamu. jadi kamu percaya ya sama aku." and i do trusting him. i love dennis yonasa so much!!